Fear is no longer a Factor for me. -and- Something's missing.

So you thought you knew me. I thought I knew me. But did you ever think I would be a contestant on Fear Factor?

If you've ever been to Universal Studios Hollywood, you would know they have a show called Fear Factor Live, in which park guests can participate in stunts you normally see on the show. A friend of a friend wanted to audition, so I said I would too. I honestly didn't think I would make it, but I did.

As we were going through wardrobe, my nerves started to kick in. First off, they had us in this ridiculous spandex costume. It was snug in all the wrong places, and then the harness hurt my shoulder and was super tight around my stomach (but it made my boobs look bigger, so hey, its all good. Hahah =] ).

Walking out on stage was TERRIFYING! But I smiled for the crowd, waved to my friend in the stands and went to the platform where I had to hang from angled bars about 80 ft. in the air. I held on the longest; I think I was the only one who realized lifting your knees would make it easier. My friend was the first one to fall, and I almost dropped laughing.

Second stunt. Not so easy. I have to run across stage, stick my hand in a tank full of live eels, pull out a flag and attach it to a hook on a pole. But oh yeah, the platform underneath the pole is spinning. What a pain in the ass. I had to do that three times. Stunt wasn't over though. In typical Fear Factor fashion, something disgusting had to be consumed.

Fish guts, pig intestines and eyes, bugs, and sour milk blended into the most disgusting smoothie I've ever seen. I put that in my mouth and swallowed it. I nearly threw up after the first swallow. I didn't end up qualifying for the next round, where the last two contestants got shocked several times (which, you know, seems tame to devouring that horrendous smoothie).

But I tried, and just had fun with it. I never would have done anything like that before. Not many people can say they were contestants on Fear Factor.

-and-

Something's missing from my life.
How else can I explain Friday night.
It was fun, sure, but I don't want just that.

I want something more.
And there are only two people I want it with.
Both of them want absolutely nothing.

Gotta love love right?